Why the fu** did you do this to me. I always felt off about my sexual orientation because i was born in a religious family. Since i felt uncomfortable about it i would date to prove that i am indeed not like that, but it didnt work out. I always hurt the other person for selfish feelings which i am sorry for .... Then i found bl media, i started to consume it because it made me feel normal. Thats kinda silly to say i know since women like these kind of genres more. But its just makes me feel like i exsist even tho i live in such a place that doesnt recognize me as a person. Jihyes words helped me a little bit. I will work hard, find a person i like and even marry maybe. Maybe i dont need everyone to accept me.