I am in no way gay I'm straight asf but i sometimes watch gay poorn just to disgust myself/entertainment cause I'm bored 

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There are 5 steps of gay:
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression (may or may not happen)
and lastly: acceptance
You are most likely at stage one
(telling yourself you are not gay by saying how you are disgusted or entertained by gp)
I hope it helped you
