Comment by SIMPai chottominute on The Missing O - Chapter 120

I'm also on the heavy side, well I can't do anything about my thick thighs and wide hips and chubby arms but people's useless opinions, twisted perceptions and insensitivity made me dislike going out. I used to enjoy hanging out with my friends, exploring different places and such but the constant comparison, body shaming, and denying my existence made me jaded. Now, no matter how much my friends invite and encourage me to enjoy life and go out of my comfort zone, I wouldn't budge. No, I hate it because my inner thoughts would just overflow, my insecurities would be more obvious, even I, myself is also comparing myself to others, the flaws that I wish I didn't have, and the pretty and perfect things I wish to possess. And it sucks, the problem isn't just about other people's painstaking standards anymore, but my mind. And I don't know how to unlearn all the things I use to cover these hideous thoughts and ugly scars. And when everything's been said and done, I found solace in the fragile bubble I made to protect myself, or perhaps I'm deluded of all these thoughts of self-love, inner peace/peace of mind, or at the very least that's what I believe. So for all the people suffering alone like me, men or women, I hope you get to build a fortress made of love, confidence, security, serenity, and acceptance, and not just a shallow bubble full of patches in attempt to not burst and fall apart.