Hi I needed to vent about something I don't expect anyone to read this or reply its just this has been the only place that has actually given me advice since chat gpt drinks all our water and reddit sucks.
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So life sucks today I walked into the girls bathroom and saw my ex she prob didn't see me cuz I git into the stall so quick but I was shaking the rest of the period. Im so mad at myself for letting her affect me this much just one look and my heart is beating out of chest and this girl has hurt me a lot but idk why I still care abt her so much. I tried talking to a new person and shes not as toxic as my ex shes just not what I want. I feel like I can never be happy with anyone but my ex i feel like I lit can't live without her. I tried dating guys but that hasn't done anything, the girl im talking to is nice but I just get weird vibes from her like a straight gril experimenting i don't want to eb someones project. I have soooooooooo much hw and its 7:42 no I didn't procrastinate but everu teacher gives me hw. I just wanna cease toe xist im so tired I just want a hug so bad. I haven't sh or smoked in like 3 weeks but I ended up doing it and im so donee I just can't I just want someone to love me and tell me its okay and help me and comfort me. Despite being surrounded by soo many individuals I feel soo lonely. I feel so broken and tired I just want to hit reset i just don't want all this hw I don't want all this stress I just want to breathe. I feel like the universe is beating me up. It may seem little to others but this is only a part of the picture. Im so so tired.
Bato refugee 🤧
