Comment by Adriana Asmi

Ilay, if you said he is only a murderious lunatic, you'd be wrong. If you said he is the biggest green flag, you'd also be wrong, and so many people fail to comprehand that as one sided characters are very common in Yaoi. Ilay for sure is f#cked up in the head, but at the same time, he also has a humane side which he only shows to Taeui. And if the novels are adapted, you will see that he becomes more human in general as a member who works with him says that he's become much less violent compared to how he was before Taeui. And, on top of that, if you notice subtle signals, you will realize how differently he actually treated Taeui from the start. A great example of that is how he almost never has gloves on when he's with Taeui (detention centre scene) because he only wears gloves when he expects to get blood on his fingers. Also if you noticed, during the scene in the hallway where Ilay was kissing Xinlu, he seemed totally unfocused and looking at Taeui but he is very attentive to Taeui whenever they get intimate. These are just a few of the many ways one can analyze Ilay's subtle gestures, even ones that weren't explicitly mentioned in the novel. About the thing with him saying sorry, I will forever defend about that. To me, you and average people, saying sorry might be a small step but imagine someone who can blow a stranger's head off without any hesitation apologizing to a guy, who beat him up, for doing something that is vanilla compared to the things he did in his past. Not very normal. While starting the novel, you need to have the understanding the most of the characters don't harbour the mentality of an average, well - functioning person. So yes, I do indeed think that 'Sorry' was a huge step for Ilay. And I think most of you already get the idea of how differently he's treating Taeui as of the current chapters. To summarise, he is neither a heartless beast neither nor a ray of sunshine. He is one problematic and complicated human.