@KKayze if u wanted to you would.if ur currently living rn it means u want to live,you just need to try ur best to remove those thoughts from your head little by little by thinking about the things you like and things u appreciate in life. You can download an app called ME if helps you stay on the right track managing ur sleep,moods and even ensures that u keep track of progress. I downloaded it when i was going though so much and had the same thoughts as u and it helped me alot