He definitely has internalised homophobia. He acts this way because realizing that he is gay/qu*** changes the foundation and identity he made himself to be. His brother seems to be more accepting of his own sexuality but the ML isn’t. There probably is some backstory about why he’s homophobic— probably related to his family? His brother is qu*** so he is forced to be straight or was drilled into thinking homosexuality is a sin and stuff.
I think in the last panels — based on the dialogues, ML wondered if he should say something to MC because MC shows signs of self-loathing and depression but saying something goes against that fact that he views qu*** people as disgusting and beneath him. It throws off his moral compass (which is barely present as it is) and hence does what every person who has internalised homophobia— “hate on the person that you like because if you hate them and they hate you, then you can’t fall in love more” which does not justify his actions or behavior, just because there’s a reason that doesn’t mean you can act that way :P
I wonder how the author will tackle this situation in a way that’ll be healthy for both parties. I’m interested (0v0 )
I think in the last panels — based on the dialogues, ML wondered if he should say something to MC because MC shows signs of self-loathing and depression but saying something goes against that fact that he views qu*** people as disgusting and beneath him. It throws off his moral compass (which is barely present as it is) and hence does what every person who has internalised homophobia— “hate on the person that you like because if you hate them and they hate you, then you can’t fall in love more” which does not justify his actions or behavior, just because there’s a reason that doesn’t mean you can act that way :P
I wonder how the author will tackle this situation in a way that’ll be healthy for both parties. I’m interested (0v0 )
Non-binary. Very addicted to BL