@Reader ah, i forgot to mention that I also want to die but this world doesn't let me leave it peaceful because I will have regrets if I suddenly die. As I'm afraid of ghost and with regrets I will be becoming ghost. I don't want to see it happen. That's why I'm living the life being lifeless. Also, one of the regrets is leaving my family behind as they are crying over my dead body. As I have said in my previous comments that I don't see my loved cry for me that's why I living it and hoping others will also think about their loved one before they try to do suicides. So, they can't do it.
Time is all thing and all the things are time