@WALALALA it's ok bro bro he will always be ur best friend and I'm sure he felt the same way abt u, ur sister may not have had a similar relationship with him like u did but u could try talking to her or ur parents and if none of them work u can always try someone that went through something similar or find someone u could vent to.
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