@Snekchan666 Paranoia made her suffer a lot. I try to talk to her but all she does is compare her pain to mine. Taking care of myself and walking on eggshells when I'm home is really hard. I try so hard to speak less because everytime I do something it displeases her. She used to love me so much before so the image of my current mom does not sit right with me. It's as if the love burned for so long until all that is left is ash. I want to get used to the situation soon but old memories keep appearing and not matter how hard I try to shut them off they just keep on haunting me.