@betty I kinda get it, because I was in the same situation where I ran before anything happened, but I kept thinking about him...idk it's prolly sumthing psychological. He was the first to give me some type of affection even if physical, but he's in prison now.
@betty sometimes people get attatched to those that have hurt them, i've also been in a similar situation which is why this manga rlly stuck with me, and i know its gross but i miss them and also blame myself for everything even though i didn't do anything. i was a kid. but its not true, its not the victims fault, the victim shouldn't be ashamed of missing their abuser, bc it's normal, everyones reaction and feeling towards their trauma varies.