I once have been in ji ho's position where I have pretty friends. And I have this toxic trait where I always overthink and have a negative mindset that only target myself, yes I don't blame people, instead I pour all the negative thoughts I could think to myself, which is also self distructing and depressing making me feel self conscious and developed a social deprivation to myself like I always bow my head to avoid contacts with people and I always think of myself to the lowest.
Even though me and jiho has a different personality we have both in common I terms of experience pertaining about friends. In my junior high I am surrounded with beautiful, handsome, talented and smart people that i always feel like I was left out in the group and I think myself to a booger in a tray of clean utensils. Compare to them I have nothing good at. They are good at academics, good in broadcasting, singing, and socialising unlike me whos socially awkward, slow learner suck at singing nor dancing with no humour