When I finally opened up about my SA after 8 years to my bestfriend she cried with me and she said the same "it wasn't your fault" and I cried we both kept crying lol. But it felt really warm when she told me that it wasn't my fault guess I just wanted to hear that from someone else
In case no one has told you, you're gorgeous, you're strong, you're precious, you can do this you've got this. And it's going to be okay trust me :)