@michel angelo you really get the feeling that Yoohan has thought about setting down his burden and stepping off the edge more than once, in real life. The sense of relief and welcome in that small smile...
For five years Yoohan had no thought of revenge because he blamed only himself. Even his ex running off with his money he accepted as nothing less than he deserved. Put that on the pile that Yoohan needed to pay back for his past. He lived mechanically, on the edge of exhaustion, avoiding connection with all others-- not even touching himself for relief. The only thing he seemed to look forward to was for it all to be over
For five years Yoohan had no thought of revenge because he blamed only himself. Even his ex running off with his money he accepted as nothing less than he deserved. Put that on the pile that Yoohan needed to pay back for his past. He lived mechanically, on the edge of exhaustion, avoiding connection with all others-- not even touching himself for relief. The only thing he seemed to look forward to was for it all to be over