Comment by Mana sou on Home page

This year I literally relapsed because of school. Every week I cry because of how stupid I am, I feel like I won't ever be able to get above average grades. I started cutting myself because I'm literally a fuc**** dumbass. I started drinking and taking ibuprofen and smoking my mom's vape. Every week I cry because I just can't get it. I sit my a** down to study and the next minute my mind has drifted somewhere else and then landed on death. I just keep thinking of how much I wanna kms and how easy it actually is. I want to be an academjc weapon but no matter how hard I try I can't focus and I can't memorize because all my thoughts drift towards death and I feel so fuc**** stupid. Why do other kids do it and I can't