@Miyaa I will listen and be here for you anytime. I am a 55yr old mum who has no prejudices. Even though I am not gay, I like reading bl. My twin brother was gay until he died of an aneurysm. I myself find life very hard, I have had a lot of awful things happen to me, I am mentioning this as I might understand a little of what others are going through and maybe I might help if I can. Sorry, if I have upset or offended anyone as I just wanted to let you know I am here for anyone. I will listen.