but i also really envy his ability to admit his wrongdoings out loud. im more keen on shutting it away, beating myself up from the inside until i blow up and take it out on everyone. my own jealousy comes from confusion. i have no idea what i am, what i identify as, what my sexuality is. im simply a person who wants to find a box to fit in but is too wrapped up in their own mind. therefore i end up idolising others, claiming any sort of personality i see and making it my own due to hating my own persona. im jealous of others - their aspirations, minds, thoughts, even their indentity. to the point where i want to become them. i aspire to be them. maybe im not exactly like him. but darn. jealousy is something so deeply engraved in me and him. i kinda relate to this dude... :))
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a piece of sh** with issues
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hey no matter who you are i think ur really good at writing cause da** i read ur paragraph and even i related to it