I've gived up on the so called "G**" because when i was still going to churches they always says that the g**/jesus is always on our side that he have a plan. But I can't always relay on that. Because is making my life miserable part of the plan? Isn't too much for a fuc**** 8 year old to handle? I've grown matured but the pain is still there not wanting to leave. I've tried to kill myself so many times now but i always fail. Because i keep coming back for affection that maybe if they noticed how I've felt they would comfort or make me believe for life again but it never came. I'm planning to kill myself when I'm 18 before my 19th birthday. I want to experience life still. That maybe I'll find people who will give me a much valid reason but fu** that. I seriously want to die. For fu** sake. I've been hanging in thin tread pulling me if i want to live or just die. 8 years old i was a fuc**** 8 years old... humans are just as bad as animals remember that.
Spoiler!
I'm underage 🙂
i want to die
You'll see me everywhere or whatever you read
It's probably 4:50 rn but I'm still reading this
