@A dude  
I don't really know if it will work but maby ask her if she can recommend some good manhwas and see if she recommends any bl or shounen ai's , or maby ask her if she has read a certain  bl and see her reaction . 

@Anami thank you 
That with the cutting myself got much better and I try to take care of myself .Iam so happy that you are so nice to me 
Wish you a great day♥️

@Anami it got better
I kinda showed her what my boundarys are and it worked out
She still talks behind my back and all that stuff , but she sees that I need my own space .
I also go to a therapist now cause I've been hurting myself but I'm almost out of that bubble and I also get advice from her how to handle the situation ( I really hope this doesn't let me seem like I'm a drama queen)
But thank you for your concern and I hope you have a great day

@Fyodors Greasy Toenail Fungus  
If you don't mind , could you tell me where your pdf is from?

@Gege lover I'm sorry 😞  I wated to like you comment  . I accidentally disliked it