@haru_bun speaking from my personal experience. Once in awhile, I definitely have thoughts of just die man, what's the point of living anyway. Work stress, expectations from parents and society. It really tiring when thinking about all these. Especially when your peers are doing really well yet I'm like stuck in the mud. 

Wandering aimlessly (physically and virtually) along my own journey, there also llittle things that capture my attention. I think that's how I pass my days. When you start filling your life with little things that make you happy, it will accumulate and maybe those bad thoughts will start to get smaller and smaller.

@Jinha Just went back to read chapter 50.5 it really seems like the after events of this chapter. Thanks