Comment by haru_bun on I’Ll Be The Matriarch In This Life - Chapter 175

@haru_bun I know very well that sometimes it's hard to move forward with the life and people don't always stay the same as they were in the past. Today you may feel you are not your best self but one day when you look back you will feel like you have become a strong person who went through this obstacle and overcame.

@haru_bun don't kill yourself don't you want to see how the story ends? That's a trivial reasons, but death's inevitable anyway so if even trivial reasons can help you keep going until things improve for you then there's no reason not to try and find as many as you can. Also you describe yourself as lazy but procrastination and lack of energy/motivation are both symptoms of depression, which you clearly have, seek treatment from a professional if you can.

Just know that you are not a lazy and definitely not a coward because I get it sometimes it gets exhausting with all the responsibilities and expectations people force on you and somewhere on the way of meeting those expectations you lose your real self in the process. 

I understand it's hard but know this that people on this platform will be with you and must admit that your comments are really hilarious and always get a smile out of me ☺️ so please don't have negative thoughts because I know one day you will be able to look inside your heart And find your old bubbly, positive self which has been always there in the corner of your heart 😊

Just know that this internet stranger is there with you and if you ever want to talk feel free to reply any of my comments and I will be there listening to you and accompany you through this journey of finding self love and positivity ☺️

@Introvert Thankyou so much for your kindness and support. I am deeply grateful. I don't have words to express how much this all mean to me. Thankyou from the bottom of my heart.

@haru_bun Hey bestie if u want to talk we r all here to listen. And abt the younger self being bubbly.. Well people change as they get older... Maybe it's cz of all the things u have been through. Anyways don't lose hope!❤️🥲

@leen I wish, I really want to seek treatment. But there are some unavoidable circumstances. Hopefully I will try my best to live the life I want to. Thankyou so much for your concern. It means a lot to me.

@Manhwa lover I am trying to be as positive as I can. Thankyou so much for this heartfelt message<3.

@haru_bun speaking from my personal experience. Once in awhile, I definitely have thoughts of just die man, what's the point of living anyway. Work stress, expectations from parents and society. It really tiring when thinking about all these. Especially when your peers are doing really well yet I'm like stuck in the mud. 

Wandering aimlessly (physically and virtually) along my own journey, there also llittle things that capture my attention. I think that's how I pass my days. When you start filling your life with little things that make you happy, it will accumulate and maybe those bad thoughts will start to get smaller and smaller.

@haru_bun Pls don't think like that...at some point in life, we all face some obstacles..some worse than the others..But no matter what happens we must never lose hope