BOMBOCLYATT

100% the one that was killed is the agent mc was supposed to work with but zhenya messed sum up and made it seem like the opposite, I'm positive he's the "psycho" that was mentioned earlier in the story

I wish i was like doc and could let my guard down so easily even if he overdoes it. trusting and letting go of things easily is not a very easy trait to have, but i can't help but wish i had it. seeing him so comfortable in his skin and still soft from the inside kinda stings. i too have amnesia cuz of what i encountered as a vulnerable kid in my childhood and my mind also erases the bad thoughts at every given chance yet I'm not soft like him. I'm gullible and think better of people. I made peace with every statement in my life. mental illness or family problems or even being disgustingly lonely. yet it still hurts to exist and to be someone i don't like. i want to be a lot of things. I want to understand and be understood.  i want to love and be loved (which sounds like too much). but I'm only a broken teenager that searches for closure in every corner in her life in hopes something will bring her peace. whether its media or talking to people on internet or even in nature. peace is everywhere but in my heart . why am i destined to encounter such horrible events since my very birth? am i going to make it alive and laugh bitterly about the days when i wanted to die. or will i be the one you fear your kids might turn out like. it hurts to know how unfixable you can be no matter how broken people that are around you are. and it also hurts to know that people don't love you even tho you do your best. your best is never enough and will never be. looking around you'll realize you're the only person you know that suffers that much. you'll pity yourself and feel like there's no tomorrow. maybe that is the case for some of us. tho life still has hope for whoever no matter what they went through or who they are. it'll never work out if you yourself don't see it anymore. and you'll prolly curse the day you were given birth on cuz same tbh.

I've been here since this manhwa had 15 chapters and now it's finally finished. i feel like a proud mother. have a good day everyone