@konigsgapingfleshlight me too

@Rachel U belated happy birthday🥂

@Phoenix thank you for the advice, i still can't find the courage to do so... i think it might take a lot of time but i will do as what you say... because it is for the best of all... i am very thankful for  the advice

@Hit_upthe3 that's totally true, even i hate it but can't resist but felt jealous.... maybe because i am not contented with what i have or for what i am...

@Phoenix Well, it happened a long time ago... it's not that interestin but here goes nothing,
  It was around Elem, that time I was over jealous and egoistic about my brother's achievement so because of that I tried to make my brother the bad one... I accused him of escaping while it was still school hours, and I even said that he was at a kind of fraternity ( in our place fraternity is kinda like a gang thing, they do stuff like bullying or scamming others that kind of stuff..) at that time my mom was currently pregnant with our youngest brother so because of that my older brother got scolded and hit ( he got bruises all over his body and I saw it with my own eyes he even bleed) since then he and my mom have this awkward type of relationship but they do talk... So that's it... Dang I feel really really a bad person... Even now... dang all I did was make him a bad person in my parents eyes... Even now I still do a lot of things that would make him like a bad person but he still does not hate me.... I really am that bad...
 
sorry if its boring