Aiyaaa he's soo sadistic, I don't even feel bad for bottom atp. Hate me for saying this but atm both are doing what they want for themselves and for each other. It's toxic? Don't be in this kind of relationship irl but the one who wants to be in this kind of relationship irl exists and who cares if they're choosing this for themselves.
I would be lying if I say I hate the idea of someone paying me for visiting good places and taking pictures. Haaahhhhhh I'm soo broke, unemployment sucks, but I'm not getting any jobs in my specialized field, I'm almost 27 and still with my parents. I'm soo grateful that they have given me space to try for job, even tho I'm failing the same exams for past three years, idk what am I even doing wrong. Without experience I'm not getting other jobs too. Sighhhhh. My life's been soo monotonous, like idk how am I pushing myself to even live further, ig it's for my parents atp who have it worse. I wanna be optimistic but nothing's going right for that positive pov. Yk what is worse, I can't even cry out loud and ik I've been going all these things because I haven't been able to do anything, ughhh being worthless sucks. Sometimes I feel like it would be better if I just disappear but ik that's not gonna do anything anyway. I'm hoping for some miracles. No way universe will not give me the things I deserve. I deserve the best. Whatever might happen, I just know I deserve the bestest things in the world. I just know it.