Comment by Nakahara Chuuya on Jaeverse

@Nakahara Chuuya I think I get what you feel. I had a suicidal friend once, and one that actually attempted. I'm so glad she survived and that the other one is in a better head space now. Depression eats away at you and to "beat" it you'll need to conquer your own mind, ask yourself the right questions to uncover the real reason for certain opinions and thoughts and gain a different perspective on things. It's all about that. I read that you can't really talk to anyone? I'm glad that you found the strenght to tell us about it, that's a great aspect about the internet, the anonymity. I also get how not having anyone to talk to at all is probably suffocating, adding to the pain you have to bear anyways already. I don't know what exactly happened to you, but divorced parents are probably a factor. My parents are divorced too. The divorce itself didn't hurt me, it was the aftermath. The things you find out and uncover, forcing one to mature earlier and bear more than one should at a young age. Talking about that type of sh** is hard, I know, but if you keep to yourself in your own head, with only one opinion and perspective on stuff getting better is unlikely. The reoccuring thoughts, all of what is making you feel depressed and suicidal, you need to try to see it differently. Get yourself to think differently. It's hard, cause thoughts are habitual things. They're just there. You'll need to stop yourself as soon as you realize that you're having bad thoughts, rationalize the situation, and think of reasons why the thoughts are there the way they are. Understanding yourself is important. English isn't my first language, so I hope I didn't fu** up anything in here:). If you're ready to talk to someone, I'd gladly try to help you. No pressure tho, ofc, that's your decision. I just genuinely want you to get better because I know what it's like