@Anna U gotta find happiness instead of finding depression. I understand what ur saying but at some point it will get bad. It will get so bad that it feels like ur under water not able to swim out cuz a heavy boulder is stuck around ur ankle. Making u fall deeper and deeper until u can't take it and die. So instead of swimming it out u should learn it un-tie that boulder and swim it out so that u can finally breath. Hope u understood what I wrote 😅