Comment by Anna on Seasons Of Blossom - Chapter 55

@Anna  oooookayy. 😶🫡🫥

@Anna  oooookayy. 😶🫡

@Anna U gotta find happiness instead of finding depression. I understand what ur saying but at some point it will get bad. It will get so bad that it feels like ur under water not able to swim out cuz a heavy boulder is stuck around ur ankle. Making u fall deeper and deeper until u can't take it and die. So instead of swimming it out u should learn it un-tie that boulder and swim it out so that u can finally breath. Hope u understood what I wrote 😅

@Anna As I am someone currently struggling with depression, my input might not be what you're looking for. I also don't know you. But I won't tell you to 'just be happy', or whatever. I'm glad you're alive, and I think you're very strong; it's difficult to overcome that. It's completely understandable to still feel like giving up though. I feel like giving up every day. I know people who know exactly what they want to do, and are working towards their future while I sit here in confusion. So I can relate, in a way. But honestly, that's their life, isn't it? Like, they know what they want to. That's great. We aren't too sure what to do. Also great. You have so much time though. You have time to think about what you enjoy doing, what things you want to do, what lifestyle you would want for yourself, etc. It doesn't really matter how long it takes you to choose what you want to do.

I'm assuming you're taking about job and career goals, but idrk so just ignore those parts if they're not applicable. There's this idea people should live a certain way; school, friends, high school, choose job, uni, job, marriage, kids, more job, die. And sure, some of those are milestones that people generally come across in their life. But its not the only way to live. It doesnt matter if you don't do some of those, or if it takes you a lot of time, or you do them in the wrong order. At the end of the day, this is your life, and as far as we know, we only get to live once. So you should live how you want to, and feel content. Putting yourself down, comparing yourself to other people, being depressed and wanting to die. Stressing about the future. Is it really worth it? I don't know how old you are, but it's a fact that we're all going to die one day. Even the people you compare yourself to. One day all of this won't even matter anymore, because we won't be here. So while you live, you should do the things you enjoy, whether that's eating good food, going to interesting places, or whatever.

If you are talking about career goals, the only reason you should think about studies or career options is because it's important to ensure that YOU live a good life. It should never be for anybody else, or anything. You may want to think about what you enjoy doing and would consider doing for money though. Like, do you enjoy acting? Would you consider being an actress? Do you like art, or mathematics? What are jobs you have thought about? What are jobs that may align with your interests? Try new things, maybe do a bit of research. You may eventually find it! On a final note,  constantly worrying about the future, and regretting your choices will lead to (im going to be blunt) living an unhappy life and dying like that. Isn't that ironic? So remember, YOLO. It's okay to not know, it's okay to be a little late, it's okay to try new things out. It's okay. You're doing great. I would recommend talking to someone who you feel comfortable with about this, whether that's family, friends, a counselor, therapist, whoever. I am always free to talk if you want to do that too. Ily. You've got this! Again, I'm glad you're here today.