Comment by MsLady on MsLady

@MsLady Now warning ⚠️ I will be very keen into the details of this experience cuz I still remember it even if I don't think much about it. It may not sound very much like the tone of a traumatized person cuz it's not. I actually think of this as one of my funniest memories which is concerning. He took out his "mushroom" (it was puny) and told me to suck it. I put my hand on it and started giving him a handjob cuz I didn't know what he meant, then he got mad (even though I already said I didn't know how) and grabbed my head and forced his thing on my mouth (I was a fourth grader, which means my mouth ain't so spacious yet I didn't gag. That's how I can tell it was puny). Halfway through a person passed by and he told me to go out but by that time had already ejaculated on my mouth... YES you read that correctly. Which I didn't taste what it was until I did taste something bitter and I spat it on my white t-shirt (no one noticed about it cuz it looked like a stain)... Also, I swallowed some of it. Plus, I didn't have anything to wash my mouth with so even if I did spat it out, some were still on my mouth and the mouth salivates and we do swallow our silavas so I don't think I have to explain what happened to the things on my mouth. This experience is probably what caused my to turn out bisexual. I may have been more affected by it more than I think cuz I have an I guess abnormal sex drive. From this experience, I have always thought that I was the one at fault. I was aware of what I was doing. i consented. Yet, I seem to forget that I was just a kid. And children's consent isn't real consent. It really is ironic that I've never though I was molested until I thought about it over two years ago... I've always thought it was my fault... I wanted to skip classes so in my mind perhaps it was "karma". So take care people... Look at yourselves, are you doing fine? You sure you're not being too hard on yourself? If you don't think so, try thinking that everything you are doing is something your friend or best friend is doing... If it's a daym lot and your friend is on your situation, you would tell them to rest. So please... Take rests and take care.