Comment by MsLady on Home page

I find it odd that some of us have very good emotional intelligence but seems to lose it when it's about themselves. Like how someone would take work from a classmate because "they don't know" how to do it as if they themselves wouldn't look up for a tutorial... You know... They can't seem to think for/about themselves. They help someone and forget to help themselves. And when something bad happens to them, they almost always think it's their fault.

I was or I may still be like this. During 4th grade, I started skipping classes. The thing is, I got envious of my older siblings cuz they get to be absent every now and then while I can't do the same. My family is composed of of course my parents then my older sister, older brother, then me, the younger, baby boy. I, as the youngest, am the pampered one among us siblings... But I am not spoiled. I would get the belt if I get too far, but, throughout my entire 18 years of being alive, it only happened twice. A similar number for each of my siblings. Our parents treats us equally but because I am the youngest, I was babied. Also for context, my mother never approved of us- especially me of taking absences... Maybe cuz I was still in my earlier years it might affect me in the future? I am the smartest amongst my siblings but also the laziest, so perhaps? My sister is the one who's the most hard working, so I may be smarter but I still fall short to her cuz... effort... though now I get to take absences... But the school has the consequence so I actually can't. Anyway, during this time, my father was overseas to support our family cuz were not.. ermmm.. with money. But back on topic, I started just outright not going to school or going home just before it starts and head to the river near our house to wait until time passes and I get to go home. I was influenced by a distant relative that time. I was already bottling up my envy cuz of how much my siblings get to stay at home and do nothing, cuz they have been getting absences since forvever (obviously they are older, didn't occur to me back then). In short he was the trigger- the snake in the tree. This relative was very VERY problematic. To give it some perspective, he once told his teacher at his previous school "Let's f*ck." Which is something you would never expect a child to say... His parents seems to allow it however. Anyway, after staying in the river a few times, people started talking of it so I had to level up my game. I switched my place and go to the coke plant which was located just right around the corner. I would sit in the waiting area despite how boring it was. Sometimes I'd leave my bag there and run off somewhere. I never lost my bag despite my carelessness. Anyway, at some point, this guy walked towards me and started talking to me... And eventually he asked me "do you know how to m**e?". I... Well... I do know but never thought of his question much nor did I think it was weird so I said yes, he then asked "do you know how to suck someone off?". I didn't know what that meant... So I said no. Then he said "I'll give you money if you do it to me." Which made me actually do it... I had no money and we were poor so I don't get much for snacks. Plus, I didn't know what he mean by "suck off". Anyway, we went under one of the trucks there. Under there, was one of those swing-thingy(forgor what it's called) that you can lay on and we sat there.