@kaykaychan I have been where you are now, and even though it sounds cliché - it will feel better in time. Ending the pain is easy, living through it is the hard part my friend. We all experience awful things in life but it is how we deal with it that matters. Reaching out for help is the first step, and often the most difficult one. Keep on living. You are stronger than you think. If you ever need to chat, feel free to hit me up anytime. Sometimes unloading your burdens on a stranger not a friend can be more beneficial. Take care.