Comment by Bluerose_ on Youth Lovesome - Chapter 40

Can actually someone help me, like getting straight to the point ...I like this boy
Actually we became close last year because he helped me through some things,  like, I had this panic attack at school and even though we didn't talk that much he was with me and then on we became close but not as friends (it was surely between classmates and friends)
 
Then after December we acc got close and now we can be called friends yk but I'm not a very social person so I can't really start a talk with him at school but he do start convos now and there
This is our last year, I was going to confess it (actually dont even know how & what) by the end but we actually unexpectedly got a lot more closed and more comfortable than before ;  he's a really a good friend and also understanding so rn I don't wanna ruin my friendship with him 
(Yk there was this one time he brought me a pen which has a cat which if we hit it on a desk it will have a light; he just gave this to me and was like here's a gift etcc 
But I wanna believe this that it was given to him and he asked some friends & even they didn't like it so he gave it to me.)

I just don't know what to do anymore

@Bluerose_ all I can say is there are 50 50 chances of getting a yes or a no 
If u decide to confess be ready for both of them and if u don't confess surely get rid of the feelings 
Ar the end of the day u know urself and him the most so just do what ur heart and mind both agreed on 
Best of luck !

@Leeknowsthighs hmm...thank you♡

@Bluerose_ How did it go? What did you do? I would suggest you confess, it would be harder for you to continue being friends in that situation - and it would be harder in the future - if he is an understanding and reasonable person, I think he can continue to be friends with you  (sorry, if i had a bad english)
Time is passing, and it is much better to confess and see the result than to say "what if" and regret it

@Jansetty hello there, thanks for asking.
I was planning to tell him next month when our finals are over but now I kinda don't wanna
As I have written previously we became good friends and I don't wanna regret ruining it
(+ I kinda feel numb thinking about him and idk why...)
But this is how I feel now, and idk if it would change in the future

@Jansetty uhm So I kinda wanted to update you a lil
So yes I didn't confess at all 
But last Friday was my final day at school before my finals and I brought a diary to take my classmates signatures (where some wrote lil thoughts as well)
...so this crush of my wrote hate "you're my life" and before writing he was like i should write smth that would make an impact/impression on you (to which idk if it's smth that you would say to Friends. So my friends says its not that normal given our real relationship cos yes we are close friends but not that close.
But imo he thinks of me as a friend(?))
And then I asked later in the afternoon I think, if he can accompany me back to my house to after this class dinner w our classmates and teacher to which he said yes
(But I remember previously when I asked to accompany me, he told his friend to do it who live kinda near me, cos ye we have like 3 metro stations distance)

So I actually don't get him istg

@Bluerose_ WOAH Thanks for the update, I was really curious! Frankly, I've heard that it's usually recommended to avoid uncertainty(?) It's really confusing. If I were you, I guess I couldn't help but ask what him what he meant (Don't mind me saying that, I never asked either)

OHH, I have something to say too!! When I read your first comment, my friend was with me and he was also very curious about you. From time to time he asks "I wonder what she did? Did she confess?" Well, I think I will confess to him soon. We are graduating soon like you and we will live in different cities.
He is a close friend of mine, today I will take him a pie that I made and we will have a picnic. If possible, I want to learn his feelings during this week, I think that even if I get rejected, since he is my close friend, we won't fall out (I hope, actually??) 
I hope everything goes the way we both want 🌻😭😭

@Bluerose_ OH By the way, my friend said that if your friend wrote you like that, he probably wrote it because he was curious about your reaction. If you don't take action, he might think that you are friends. And if he can say those things to you in a "friendly" way, then you should say those kinds of things in a "friendly" way too. And if you have mutual friends with him, you can also consult them, he says 
(I couldn't edit my other comment so i had to write a second one)

@Jansetty