Comment by mygoldencum on mygoldencum

thank you all for your kind words, i guess i have to take it day by day. it's hard because some days i wish that i did not wake up, i wish i could be someone else, i wish that i could be gone. i think i have taken comfort in being sad and it becomes greatly self destructive. 

i want to feel better so i will try to do better. i will start looking forward to the little things like spaghetti monster and simpinrn said. it's hard because i don't have the resources to also seek mental health aid, but i try to do some self help activities. 

i just want to feel alive, and not feel like i exist passively. i will try.