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I genuinely have no one to talk about this with to the point i comment it here

So at the start of this semester i came alone cus I didn't talk to anyone on the summer break and there this girl that a lot of kids hate because she has no self awareness and no tact and she just clinged to me so i just talked with her and i became friends with her because she was the only person who was with me.
I used to like not come to school at all like miss 2-3 days a week because school just wasn't fun for me because no friends
And after a few months after school started I started talking more with my cousin since shes in my grade and we became really good friends and i really enjoyed being with her and later on she introduced me to her friends and then we just became a group and we were on calls everyday 24/7 and it was really fun and I started coming more to school and meet up with friends. well a few days ago my cousin blocked me and stopped talking with me for the dumbest reason like shes a 5 years old and since we fought I haven't talked with the other friends in the group at all like they didn't invite me to calls anymore so we just didn't talk
I mean only 1 of them sometimes comes to me at school and hugs me but thats all.
And like today at school i told myself i should go talk with my cousin cus i wanna make up with her but it felt like i was talking to a wall and she just says dumb things and she said she don't wanna talk with me so i just left and now i only have that friend that everyone hates and i genuinely don't know what to do cus i wanna keep talking with the other friends in the group but idk they never called so it feels like they don't wanna talk or smth so im thinking if i should call or smth but at the same time it would be kinda rude cus my cousin wouldn't be on the call and like shes the one that introduced us to eachother.
Anyways i just don't know what to f**g to do i hate school and i hate those motherfuckers and a lot of kids hate me because im friends with that one girl and I don't wanna be friends only with her cus shes just very embarrassing to be around
Luckily school ends in a few days but like im scared bc ill have no one to hang with at summer break, i dont enjoy anything anymore like games and stuff nothing is really fun anymore i just open this site every single day every hour and hope that new chapters came out because i have nothing else to do so i just rot in my f**g bed. I tried talking with my mom like 20 mins ago about it and she just shows me training videos and tells me i need to train😭 i literally cried Infront of her and she tells me "wow i used to love doing that" like bro i don't gaf

Just kill me already bro im that close to jump off the roof because life is so f**g s*t🫩