I am a little confused...does the mc even love the ml? everything the ml does seems to disturb or annoy the mc, all his reactions are "shut up", "leave", "go to sleep", or he tries to avoid the ml to the point he buys a hotel to sleep away from him, interprets everything the ml does are negative and blames him for his insomnia. The only reason we know he loves the ml at all is cuz this story is form his perspective and we can read his mind.
Meanwhile, the ml calls the mc his lover, cuddles/hugs with him, sleeps with him in his house everyday, cooks for him, picks him up from work, cares about his health, calls or messages him everyday and is even thinking of him when he is fed up with work. The only things are that he doesnt have s** with the mc and is rude with his remarks? but we know part of that is because of past trauma, and despite that he is putting far more effort into the relationship than the mc even though he doesnt like betas apparently imo.
like who is really in love here? does the mc not expect to sleep with his lover everyday? Why is he even here if he isnt willing to love the ml or doesnt wanna be around the ml? not like he is locked in a contract, bonded to him or anything. I am so confused.