and now I don't have both nor family nor friends, friends they talk about me behind my back like I can't hear them, family they told me to die and talk sh** in front of me like I'm not there, this is he** I just want to be free, I want to go outside without being scared I don't want to be someone toy, I don't want them to play with me whenever they want and throw me whenever they are bored, I'm so tired i want to die, I don't feel like living in this world anymore I just want to end things, cut off connection from everyone and disappear somewhere in the wind.