Hello, I understand what you mean. I have the same conundrum when trying to speak in a different language to others. When speaking in English, one thing you could try is watcing a show or movie in English; it helps you learn new words and gives examples of how people talk and pronounce in English. Another idea; try reading out loud, or simply practicing with someone while having a conversation in English. The biggest thing when learning a language, wherether readig or speaking, is to practice until you feel comfortable. I hoped this is helpful. Best of luck! 