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I throw a tantrum like 12 yrs old ( I'm 10 yrs more older ) over icecream to mom . Cause she was bragging about how tasty the icecreams we're she ate and didn't bring any for me . Days ago when father also didn't buy any cause - it'll be bad to eat icecream in that weather . 
So my mom's giving me silent treatment for a week now . And father's just chill like nothing happened.

I'm a single child and it's just us . I study from home and due issue my tution is closed over week . So for a week now other than few words with dad,  I've not talked with anyone .

It's a silly issue to even quarrel about,but I think my mental health is closaping . I can't even read a line properly and want to sleep whole day .
I thought I overcome those issues years ago .

Oh I said sorry that night to mom and also realised - I never got a thing from childhood without throwing tantrum or something like that .
 I remember whenever I asked for a keychain , makeup kits like kajal, lipstick or book sticker , what's luxury for our household , I was said - I will not need it . I never asked for b'day present , party is unthinkable . Even when I was in 5th class , I could understand ' I shouldn't be asking for up of 100 ruppes products. 
 
Even when I consider applying for scholarship college and giving up 2 yrs for it , when they just watered away money for uncle's unnecessary things  , we fight over icecream .
Whatever thanks for reading . My lifetime goal - getting my own roof and sleeping at night there soundly .

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@Jinnie Jonnie im guessing youre south asain and i get it. lots of our parents have not raised us the best and the result is that we dont know how to process our emotions at our big age. be consious and self-aware.
@rae agree , I've worked on meditation over years and it helps a lot  .but when the talks come from the most unexpected person I can't overcome it . And blew up . 
Gotta practice more.
@Jinnie Jonnie they are angry because your story wasn't good. Also, if you complete your goal don't forget about your family even though you're angry at them.
@Book eh ! They're love of my life . How can I forget them .I consider it part of experience . I can't forget the ones who fed me meals and stay awake when I was ill  
Thanks for those words .I needed it .
@Jinnie Jonnie I don't get the hate it's just a normal experience 
Fighting over ice cream is pety but I understand
Armageddon
ArmageddonBattle-Hardened·1 year ago
@Book  nah,ditch your family,they treat you like trast then don't give them the time of day,and if they don't give you anything,don't give them anything.