Comment by Bagel on Blalalaika

@Bagel either he was abused by his dad (mum seemed very caring, so I doubt it's her) or someone else or he turned like this, because he supressed himself too much from small age. His dad is pastor and his mum de...smthg (sorry, English is not my first language and I don't know the meaning of that word,so I forgot what his mum works as) so they are probably very concervative and strict aka if they would find their son is gay, they would probably disown him So he was hiding his trueself till the point where he thinks he only can feel pleasure,if he is paying some sort of price and in this case the price is pain...or smthg like that 😅

@Bagel As a guess he was raised by a pastor and a deaconess, he probably feels guilty for enjoying what is considered devient behavior and deserves this, tbh it's really hard to read.  You can see the Ml is having such a hard time continuing with this, he just wants to reach him, show him and i think he doesnt even know how to handle this situation at this point