g**, trio friendships are so, so dangerous. It's so hard to make things work especially when you are the third wheel, it hurts so so bad. i remember when I was getting cut off and I was scared. I couldn't sleep at night because of all the thoughts of what's wrong with me? how can I change myself so they like me better?
obviously this is a really damaging way of thinking but you can't help it, and just tunnel visioning into believing only those people are your friends, though you are always going to be the second pick, the damaged good. The way I got over the trio friendship was just taking that step forward and just talk to other people.
For me, those other people were just old friends. However, you might not be able to reconnect with your old friend. In that case, just try to find other people. It's pretty cliche and obvious but that's how it works out. I don't recommend clinging onto the friendship as of now, it's really damaging. Maybe in the future you can heal and forgive, but yeaaaaaa as of now please don't. just find your people.
Also for me during this time, I just really tried to place my mind in a different space by doing things I enjoy. I love reading BL and stories, and playing games. Take your mind off of things, but don't let it become an obsession and control you.
Overall I really hope you stay safe and trust me, WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE. if you wanna talk I totally can w/ you
you will feel a little better bit by bit and piece yourself back together. No person's an island. <3
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Chiguha Kuna Kisu
Sono Gap Nyoi Special Feature
Suezen Kurau wa Otoko no Tachi
White Pa wn
Discarding the Misfit Collar
Hedgehog and Contrast
