Comment by Katheryn Thari on Guiding Hazard - Chapter 6

@Katheryn Thari ...idk why im doing this or is what u say is even real but here's a few tips:
1. dont go to the internet for help.
2. either shove those feelinggs down into a box and lock them away and distract urself by reading, watching movies/series listening to music, etc; or feel and work threw those emotions.
3. talk to them or someone/something
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4. dont go to the internet for help.

@Katheryn Thari thats really sad....i dont know the cause or anything so i dont know what to say but i really recommend you to share this to someone ur close with or wanto be close with and then cry out everything..it will really help alot and youll start getting closer to that person and by time you can replace ur old friendship with them
i know it can be really hard and not replaceble, then dont replace just start depending on a new person but dont open up to them really quick..make it slow and when you feel like you can really trust that person, then only start being comfortable..only then will it not hurt when loosing them..also dont go for many people just look for one that can really help you
  ....actually im loosing a 9year old friendship a bit by bit(and the fault is on my side, its me whos not trusting her) but im really mentally prepared and okay with it cause ive been lonely for like 3 years now..i started to notice that everybody doesnt like me much and anybody would priotize someone else more than me (which was obvious) so i slowly started building up a wall ..i never trusted anybody cause i felt humans could betray anyone anytime and same goes with me...i started not to belive one this feelng called "love"(not as a lover but simply liking anyone)..i felt soo empty with everyone like i act and behave like anyone else but in reality i dont give a sh** about them..i started to fear liking someone cause they may not like me as much ill like them or they r just like me acting everything but dont care what happens to me cause i wont know what they are thinking even parents..my feelings with everyone started fading and my emotions kept getting lesser...i started to feel so lonely and alone cause i was not able to trust anyone anymore..

then i found anime, mangas and games etc. i really strted enjoying it! i started feeling many different kinds of emotions,,like i- ghoosebumps, sadness, hype, exitment, frustration, depression, anger , love and what not..i started meeting and befriending ppl thruogh games and really got along with them...i started escaping reality cause i dednt had any trust left on real lyf...online lyf is my everything now 
bt i realy regret bottling up emotions..if only i had let it out to someone that day i would have been a diffrent person now..i really enjoy the online world but i regret it just as much...im addicted and dependent on this now which aint a gud thing:/

 ... so i really ask you not to hide or bottle up your feeling, cry it out to someone, even family is okay too but cry it out to someone you deeply trust you'll see the change and dont ever choose my path..learn liking both the worls..i really hope youll be okay please keep having a true smile and dont fake anything ;)
im relly sorry for such a lengthy and unrelated lecture TvT

( i sent my comment in two parts cause it said it was too long)

im sorry TvT i accedently typed an whole essay

@unkown   u actually read all those to like my comment?!

@unkown i know but i can't stop anyways I'm tell the thruth but sorry if i did something wrong

@i fw shidou thankss for that recommendation and the cause is, parents don't approve and us fighting because of you know, i hate being the third wheel in our trio so i tells her how i feels and our friendship is gone because i hated being the third wheel and second choice but if i make anyone annoyed by this I'm sorry, i can't resist typing and i cried myself to sleep and the next day I'm fine because i read bls. But anyone please don't feel sorry for me its fine

@Katheryn Thari ah..so its a trio problem..i always make trio grm so i get you :D its really frustrating and jelousy when u feel like ur becoming a third whel>:( ..you know what, finding your on way to move on is the best or try to negotiate wuth ur frnd..if u still feel disappointed in her, then shes not worth it...hope u start feeling okay bit by bit :) <3

@Katheryn Thari

g**, trio friendships are so, so dangerous. It's so hard to make things work especially when you are the third wheel, it hurts so so bad. i remember when I was getting cut off and I was scared. I couldn't sleep at night because of all the thoughts of what's wrong with me? how can I change myself so they like me better? 

obviously this is a really damaging way of thinking but you can't help it, and just tunnel visioning into believing only those people are your friends, though you are always going to be the second pick, the damaged good. The way I got over the trio friendship was just taking that step forward and just talk to other people.

For me, those other people were just old friends. However, you might not be able to reconnect with your old friend. In that case, just try to find other people. It's pretty cliche and obvious but that's how it works out. I don't recommend clinging onto the friendship as of now, it's really damaging. Maybe in the future you can heal and forgive, but yeaaaaaa as of now please don't. just find your people.

Also for me during this time, I just really tried to place my mind in a different space by doing things I enjoy. I love reading BL and stories, and playing games. Take your mind off of things, but don't let it become an obsession and control you. 

Overall I really hope you stay safe and trust me, WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE. if you wanna talk I totally can w/ you

you will feel a little better bit by bit and piece yourself back together. No person's an island. <3

@i fw shidou solid advice and yes i did read your entire essay