hey dw maybe everything is fine with your friends and even if it isn't people naturally drift apart so don't worry new people would come along. And if you think po** is negatively affecting you this much then maybe you should look to reduce your time watching and reading it. But honestly everyone loses their innocence at some point and ur not a pervert.
I hope everything works out for you <3
(wow srs this rlly wasn't usual bl comment section interaction)