Ik how you feel but tbh don't think it's because you are not innocent. Nowdays everyone is somewhere annoying and tbh if your friends don't talk to you, maybe they are not the right ones or something is going on so find out what it is that they don't talk to you and either it gets better again or move on with the time going. If you feel shi*** this is totally ok but don't just think this is the end. Kind of funny that I'm writing something like this under a BL 💀 but yh
I'm scared of ppl too and think I'm annoying but I don't believe it would be different if I didn't started reading and watching po** because I don't walk around saying it and nowdays many ppl watch po** or things they are not supposed to so don't feel to bad because everyone has somewhere dirt on them.
So well I hope it helped a bit, if not I'm sorry but yh wish you the best ;*