@Animebitch Study hard, get a job, become independent, move out!!! I know it's hard with the circumstances.... but your future self is at stake and it all depends on the decision you take now, your first priority should be your safety (saying this from experience, i've held everything in despite all the breakdowns i had during that period in my life cuz i know at the end of the day it all comes down to me and I will be the only one to suffer the consequences of my mistakes) trust me you will get through this. Stay strong