Hi, I hope you all are doing well. I need your opinion.
My mother, from a wealthy family, married my poor father, who constantly asked her for money. She was emotionally tortured by my grandparents and uncle’s wife, who borrowed money and expected my father to repay it. Despite a successful career, my father had affairs and kept his brother-in-law as a salesman, who sold products cheaply to relatives. My mother, although wealthy, couldn’t take anything from my father's shop.
We moved to my mother's house when I was two due to a toxic environment and returned when I was ten. My father started beating my mother. At eleven, I got into bad relationships and advised my mother to divorce, but she refused. During COVID-19, I fell into depression and later fell in love with a boy. My mother’s cousin found out, and my phone was confiscated. We got back in touch, but he eventually broke up with me. I was devastated and diagnosed with depression. Later, we reconnected, but he admitted he couldn’t cheat on me.
I became very ill but never stopped loving him. Now, he's in a new relationship while I’m stuck in the past, facing financial issues. My mother is also depressed and angry.
What should I do with my life? I've considered suicide multiple times. How should I react to my parents? I feel emotionally numb and laughed unconsciously when my mother was crying
