@Mistress Maya it makes sense. Her whole life has been dedicated to others and service, repaid with only hardship and betrayal.
Her mother drove her away for her brother, the person who's empire she dedicates her service to abuses, sexually assaults and conspires against her. She's reached the point of exhaustion.
She is completely alone, and has no home to return to, she no longer has a purpose and the burden (it's theirs anyway) can now be taken up by others.
She no longer believes she has a reason to stay alive.
The one thing that cannot be taken and she will not let them have is her pride.
Rather than become an object of pity and be buffeted around at the whims of others, she wants to end it on her own terms.
Her mother drove her away for her brother, the person who's empire she dedicates her service to abuses, sexually assaults and conspires against her. She's reached the point of exhaustion.
She is completely alone, and has no home to return to, she no longer has a purpose and the burden (it's theirs anyway) can now be taken up by others.
She no longer believes she has a reason to stay alive.
The one thing that cannot be taken and she will not let them have is her pride.
Rather than become an object of pity and be buffeted around at the whims of others, she wants to end it on her own terms.
