@Animebitch First go consult with doctor and get a therapy. Getting better is the first step.
Next step will heavily depends on how long you take to recover. But that sould be to get yourself few goals in life (be it grand, humble, ordinary, awesome... whatever as long as you feel doing it). Achieving something in your life or just avoiding trouble to be at peace. In short : making/building a life for yourself.
Thrid step could be to make peace with relatives you deem worthy. Or simply cutting ties and making new encounters like a butterfly going from flower to flower. mb you could get lucky and meet great ppl.
But as a former kid from violent family, you'll have to always watch yourself so as to avoid (involuntarily or in spite of you) mimicking such. Because it happened when you were so young, you're most than just "probably" imprinted at epigenetics level (hence the long-lasting depression) and more at risk to make mistake as well (e.g.: choosing the wrong person, abiding violent partner, being violent with your kids, etc). It is not "fair" but Life is Life. Meaning as long as you're careful, you can overcome it. Just never forget where you come from and turn your weakness into strength 🙂
Next step will heavily depends on how long you take to recover. But that sould be to get yourself few goals in life (be it grand, humble, ordinary, awesome... whatever as long as you feel doing it). Achieving something in your life or just avoiding trouble to be at peace. In short : making/building a life for yourself.
Thrid step could be to make peace with relatives you deem worthy. Or simply cutting ties and making new encounters like a butterfly going from flower to flower. mb you could get lucky and meet great ppl.
But as a former kid from violent family, you'll have to always watch yourself so as to avoid (involuntarily or in spite of you) mimicking such. Because it happened when you were so young, you're most than just "probably" imprinted at epigenetics level (hence the long-lasting depression) and more at risk to make mistake as well (e.g.: choosing the wrong person, abiding violent partner, being violent with your kids, etc). It is not "fair" but Life is Life. Meaning as long as you're careful, you can overcome it. Just never forget where you come from and turn your weakness into strength 🙂