Comment by Alexx on Alexx

I am truly sorry that happened to you. And idk it was not his plan for you to get sexual assaulted. :( What I do know is that G** gave all humans free will because he didn't want to force us to do anything. Because if you love someone you wouldn't force them to do anything. And I have some credibility because the environment I grew up in normalized s** so I grew up not having s** with people, but they did stuff to me. I almost got raped and if it wasn't for our babysitter walking in I would have. I was not hyper sexual but I was very lustful. I would do stuff every day and night. And I read these all th e time. But soon I was anxious because of my history and people finding out. And I would just think about s** all the time. It started draining me. And I would do it but I started getting numb because I've been doing this since I was seven and I stopped at fourteen. That was very draining. And sad. I was very broken. I was mean to everyone around me. I made my grandmother cry too. I went to foster care because of my mother with my too little siblings who was 3 and an infant. I was only 10 at the time. I was forced to grow up and my foster family saw me... lus****. But I still didn't stop. Finally I got out of the system to move back with my mother that I hated. It made me very suicidal and depressed. I was around 12. So for years I battled with depression. I tried to end my life multiple times. I still have my sh scares. I had a mental breakdown and he introduced himself to me. I was at the lowest point of my life and G** wanted me. He gave me a big hug. Matthew 11:28, Psalm 147:3. There is a whole Bible story about a man who was so sad he wanted to kill himself. You should see how G** responded (1 Kings 19:1-8) :)