Comment by Alexx on Dawn of the Dragon - Chapter 21

@Alexx a plan ? a plan for me? then was it his plan to make me get se*ual assaulted and make me hyperse*ual? huh? was it? glad you found peace for yourself but some of us are broken, nobody wants the broken ones

I am truly sorry that happened to you. And idk it was not his plan for you to get sexual assaulted. :( What I do know is that G** gave all humans free will because he didn't want to force us to do anything. Because if you love someone you wouldn't force them to do anything. And I have some credibility because the environment I grew up in normalized s** so I grew up not having s** with people, but they did stuff to me. I almost got raped and if it wasn't for our babysitter walking in I would have. I was not hyper sexual but I was very lustful. I would do stuff every day and night. And I read these all th e time. But soon I was anxious because of my history and people finding out. And I would just think about s** all the time. It started draining me. And I would do it but I started getting numb because I've been doing this since I was seven and I stopped at fourteen. That was very draining. And sad. I was very broken. I was mean to everyone around me. I made my grandmother cry too. I went to foster care because of my mother with my too little siblings who was 3 and an infant. I was only 10 at the time. I was forced to grow up and my foster family saw me... lus****. But I still didn't stop. Finally I got out of the system to move back with my mother that I hated. It made me very suicidal and depressed. I was around 12. So for years I battled with depression. I tried to end my life multiple times. I still have my sh scares. I had a mental breakdown and he introduced himself to me. I was at the lowest point of my life and G** wanted me. He gave me a big hug. Matthew 11:28, Psalm 147:3. There is a whole Bible story about a man who was so sad he wanted to kill himself. You should see how G** responded (1 Kings 19:1-8) :)

@Alexx Amen G** bless you. But as a christian we shouldn't read this right? I have trouble with manwhas cause I can't stop reading them 😭

@aaa No we shouldn't read this. (If your concerned abt the chapter number I went through my history and posted this comment.) I understand it's hard. For me, coming to Jesus helped me because the more I knew him, the harder it was to LIKE reading it. Idk how it is going to be for you though. T

@Alexx thank u 😕 I always feel so guilty for what I'm doing especially cause I literally have a po** addiction and I'm drifting away from G** even though I had the privilege to be raised by Christian parents. I'll try my best to spend more time with G** again. 🫶

@Alexx there's a reason why the word 'gód' is censored here, also you can read these as a christian too, it's fiction

@werritte55 It's funny to me that G** is censored here. The creators of this website really know what they're doing. That they are leading people to sin. They don't want G** to be mentioned.
and just because it is fiction doesn't mean it's good for me to read?? Fiction and non fiction stuff can still affect our mind and body. Like po** is fiction but it still messes with people minds. We all know (I hope) that watching po** is bad for us. It affects our future partners too. I remember hearing abt this man named forest Frank. He used to watch po**.  When he was intimate with his wife, he ended up hurting her. You pick up things from watching it. An po** isn't reality so it hurts people.

@aaa YAY!! I know you deleted your account so you won't be able to see this, but thank you!! Thank G**!! You did it!! You really did it! I am so proud of you!!!!

@Alexx Idk who the HECK would dislike a testimony. Idk what there is to dislike? You dislike the fact that I read po** since I was a child but then got saved? Or that I was almost raped but got saved? Or that when I wanted to die, G** said your more than your mistakes  and stopped me from killing myself?

@raging lesbian sorry that happen and for me my life is miserable (won't get into details) and I tried killing myself but it didn't work I want to believe there's a G** but I just can't