Comment by sosocrates on Mana sou

@Mana sou i used to do the same thing. eventually i just kind of stopped starting conversations lol like i still talk to people if they talk to me and im always really nice in what i say to people but its hardly ever genuine because i have a difficult time making myself really care. im also really bad at picking up on social cues. so yeah, tbh i relate to this a lot, it used to happen all the time where people would bring something up way later about something i said or how i acted and not only would i not remember it but even while theyre explaining it i would still have a hard time realizing what they were getting at. its really embarrassing and i always felt really bad about it. it didnt really help that they never believed me when i said that I didnt realize, they always thought i was just being a di** on purpose :(. so i guess talking less was just kind of a natural progression for me.

when i went on like my first date and was picking her up, I didn't go up to the house I just waited in my car. Like in retrospect, years later, yeah i was a dumbass. but at the time i legitimately didn't realize that was rude lmao. It didn't help that i was sheltered like a mf and homeschooled till i was like 15 but when she brought it up wayyyy later it literally shocked me. like not only had i not realized it was rude, but then i just literally never thought about it again lmao. so to realize that she had been thinking about it all this time kinda fuc*** me up lol ive got so much empathy but i need people to actually tell me to my face before i can actually feel empathy over it.