...I really-really doubt he would really wanted to fu** his mom ever, so no, absolutely not an incestious way. It's not like that at all, it's rather...
It's hard to explain, it's more about intimacy when he calls her mom's name instead of b** in those moments or something. A mix of regret, anger, love, fear, helplessness, traumas, hope, etc, everything, tTat's what he shoul navigate with, and the best/worst part of this whooole story is he almost did it...! Do you remember, he got to that point with B** when he really belived that the boy tried to poison him (agin!), but still, he decided to trust him to the point he restrain himself from an instant act (what he always do anyway...) and actually went and count those pills. He WANTED to be wrong so desperately, he wanted to keep b**, love b**, he really cared him on his own way, and he almost made it,..! He almost reached the point he doesn't have to be kill or even be violent anymore to feel a little bit better, He almost realized he really can calm down, no need to take out his anger because he found someone who loves him so much without any intend to hurt or betray him, so he don't have to be alarmed all the time, no need to worry when this love turns against him... That's a pretty hard thing to learn for someone who was abused (in any way). That you no need to project or take out your anger on anyone, you can handle it on your own, because it's not growing anymore. Because love is not uncertain and hurtful.
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